Damaged Heart

"My Heart Series" - https://suno.com/playlist/907cb688-f774-44b0-9686-e641b3b7072e

Everyone promises me they won't be the same

Patient waiting, without complaint

I warn you that it won't be easy

You promise forever, I believe you won't tease

I watch them walk ahead of me

Pretend there's something I need to see

Go on, I'll catch up in a while

Then stand there practicing my smile

I'm trying hard to stay sporky

Make everybody laugh instead

They say you look just fine to me

I wish they'd look inside my chest

And I know that you get tired too

I just wish I could stop disappointing you

My heart's a little damaged, true

But I keep smiling like I'm supposed to do

I'm sorry if I'm hard to love

I'm giving everything I've got, and it's never quite enough

You were patient for a little while

Now you barely notice when I smile

I know I'm slower than you want me to be

But I'm still here

I understand why you don't want me.

I have secrets, things I don't want seen

Like that's a normal thing to need

I want to be normal, I try to be normal

but I'm far from normal, a tormented soul

I want it, but I cancel that week

They stop inviting me eventually

And I can't blame them, can I?

I'm the girl who's always saying goodbye

I'm trying hard to stay sporky

I wore my brightest smile today

They say, I'd feel much better

If you tried a little harder anyway

I wanted to say the trueth, what it's like

To be afraid of sleeping every night

My heart's a little damaged, true

But I keep smiling like I'm supposed to do

I'm sorry if I'm hard to love

I'm giving everything I've got, and it's never quite enough

You were patient for a little while

Now you barely notice when I smile

I know I'm slower than you want me to be

But I'm still here

I understand why you don't want me.

Being silly and being brave

I wanted everybody entertained

If I could make you laugh enough

You wouldn't notice what I couldn't do

But you don't laugh the way you did

And I don't know what I did

You say you can't just live like this

As if I wouldn't give anything

To make this end

I don't want to be the reason

That you have to slow your life

I don't want to need reminding

That I'm lucky I'm alive

So I'm sorry for my damaged heart

I guess for me I have to restart.